i am the problem.

It ain't no use to talk to me; it's just the same as talkin' to you!

Make a twitter post
They’ll give you cheap sympathy
They don’t know better

She’s worth it to me
It’s not sane and it’s not fair
But it’s how it is




Some of the people in my life are such hypocrites but I have zero power to call them out without risking them using anti-o language against me. How fucked is that? 

I WAS IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE LIKE THAT. They were like, “Here is a bunch of delusional bullshit and if you disagree with me at all it proves my point and makes me innocent and a victim and you a fool crazy monster” ugh good riddance save yourself bail bail bail

You don’t need their crazy talk making you miserable and frustrated. And your efforts aren’t helping because they are misconstruing you and congratulating themselves.

Sometimes we just can’t help.

A concerned friend asked me if I’m doing okay because of the haiku.

Don’t be alarmed. I wrote those around the end of summer, I think, during a pretty bad time. I think a lot of them were inspired by a relationship that is over now.

I typed them up for the pal-or-whatever who bugs me about writing. I queued them up I think the day of eat my cock and go to hell/baby kitties snuggle you. There are more in the queue still. I think some are not very good. I’m kinda glad I’m sharing them because it feels a little like getting rid of them or abandoning my ownership of them or something.

Now I’m worried, though, that what I wrote then is speaking to people now. I don’t want you feel anything resembling how I felt then. But I know I need shit and darkness and despair acknowledged when I’m suffering, so maybe my little bleak glimpses will be affirming somehow.

I don’t know a better way to say this.

Things need to be said
Exploding inside my chest
Burning in my throat



A Palestinian boy defies the Israeli forces on friday after they prevented him from praying in Al-Aqsa Mosque so he prayed in front of them on the asphalt.

طفل فلسطيني يغيظ جنود الإحتلال ويصلي أمامهم على الإسفلت بعد أن قاموا بمنعه من الصلاة داخل المسجد الأقصى 

Fucking hero.

I watched a movie
Identified with them both
Cried my fool heart out

[a bunch of of Montreal lyrics]

Treat all like angels
Wrestle them until the dawn
Demand they bless you

I want to curl up
(I don’t let myself say this)
Inside you and die